It's less than 30 minutes until our call. I'm blogging for my nerves sake now! My heart is beating fast, hands are sweating.... WOW. I've been fine all day. I'm not scared, just anxious. I am about to find out the intimate details of our children's lives. Children we've been "paper pregnant" with is just as real and serious as the little sweeties who kick you in the womb.
I wonder so many things about them. I only have 5 pages of questions we've typed out but my mind is racing wondering if I've forgotten something or if I'm asking the wrong kind of things. My SW has assured me they are fine and I trust her, but I'm also a mom. I'm entitled to a little worry. All I do know is these babies, born of my heart, will come to me with a past that they nor I will ever fully know. I know they've been loved. I want to actually hug their foster mommy because she has kept them in such love. You can see it in their eyes. I will be hearing her voice soon and I'm so overwhelmed. I have tears puddling.... Oh dear! God help me now!
I'm going to go and say a prayer.
Love to all
~K
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