Loving my life !

I miss my boys. I have been fine until last night my mom said my baby boy wanted to talk to me. It dawned on me, my baby boy is 10 now and since moved from his ranks.

Having daughters is a whole new world for me. "Fix my hair bows, Mommy" "Paint my fingers and toes, Mommy." I LOVE IT. They're both so sweet. Emalee wants to go "wis Daddy" everywhere he goes. Jaida says Hi to everyone everywhere. We're having a great time. We're tired, but having a great time. Nicholas is precious too and if you read the last post you'll see what a doll he is. Emalee has been very motherly to the others their whole life so she is quick to tell me how to do things and I appreciate it, but I want her to enjoy being a little girl and relieve her of her responsibilities. We've let her stay up a little later than the babies and she thinks she's all that now. She seems to have never been entitled to her privilege of being the oldest. Though she won't be in our home, she is of these siblings and there's something special about that. Jaida- well, she's a princess in all ways. She has attitude and is not afraid to use it. She's a bright eyed little thing with a walk that is soooo cute!

Yesterday and today we had visits with the Foster parents. Whew, the last final goodbye is at 8am. We're feeling like all these meetings aren't really the best thing because the kids are getting a little confused, but we also have to put forth the effort to make this transition smooth.

Post later....

Dad's eye view

Today started out with great anticipation, we really didn't know what to expect. We were so excited just knowing that we were finally going to get the chance to meet our children. We prayed that all would go well.

We left our hotel following the caseworker to the their house, which is just a few blocks from the hotel. When we arrived, we made our way in to the kitchen and sat at the table with the foster parents. The girls were in the living room and seemed shy at first. As we began to speak with the girls and break the ice, I noticed that Nicholas was playing outside by himself. We had brought each of the children a small travel size Magna Doodle, so I decided to go outside and bring Nicholas his and build a rapport.

The first thing that I did as I observed Nicholas playing was pray. I asked God to heal Nicholas and allow him to open up to me and trust me. I began playing with him and he seemed to warm up to me quickly. I then held my hand out and he placed his hand in mine at first, then began to rub my arm. I thanked God for this wonderful opportunity that we have been given.

A few moments later, K came out with E and J and E allowed me to hold her. J was still a little shy, so I figured that I would just give her some time. After about an hour or so at the house, we decided to take the children to the park. We loaded the three of them up in their new car seats and off we went, two proud parents with 3 new little angels. We spent a short time with them at the park, then a fun trip to McDonald's. They all did great.

We decided to come back to the hotel and watch a movie or something and just spend some quality time and get some photos as well. It was recommended by the caseworker that K and I refer to one another as Mommy and Daddy and see how the children adapted. Soon E was calling me Daddy and I must tell you, there is something very different about a little girl calling you Daddy, than a boy calling you Dad. The word "Daddy" when spoken from the lips of a cute little angel like E makes your heart melt and instantly makes you see how it would be easy to give in at times. This is unfamiliar to me but I already love it.

N allowed me to hold him and play with him more and more as the day went on. J finally allowed me to carry her and play with her, she is a fearless little sweetie when it comes to climbing and jumping. We then decided to take a trip to Wal-Mart and they all sat in the buggies and did great. I know that things will be even easier when we get home and have B and R to help out.

It was then time to bring the children back to their home. E was very upset and said that she wanted to stay with us. When we arrived the foster families home, E didn't want to get out, J was ok gettng out, but N blocked both buckles of his car seat when I opened the side door and didn't want to get out. I finally got him to unbuckle.

As we went to the door the children began to cry and would not let go of us. We decided to go inside for a few minutes and help them calm down. N ran around the house crying and refused to let his foster mother give him a tablespoon of his medicine. I then picked N up and he immediately stopped crying, at which time the foster mother handed me the tablespoon and N allowed me to give it to him. We left the house heart broken as the children were taken to their rooms crying. It was very very difficult to leave them.

We are looking forward to more time with them tomorrow and plan on having them stay with us here at the hotel. I can't wait to hug them again!

Well, that is a synopsis of our first day, there will be much more to follow.

God Bless,
-D

Mom's Eye View!

Well, today ranks among the top 5 most wonderful days of my life! We met the kiddos and they warmed up to us like sunshine on the hood of car. We are officially Mommy and Daddy. We arrived at the foster home around 10 am PST and saw them for the first time. They are so much more beautiful than their pictures! The girls immediately shyed away and I began the silent prayers that would fill the entirety of my day. I brought along with me some travel magna doodles that my mom picked up on clearance at Target. Today's value: priceless. I started my dialouge with E, addressing her love for drawing and opened hers up. I said, "Hi E, I hear you like to draw." She said yes, I handed her the magna doodle and our relationship began. I scanned the room for other opportunities to interact and there was a baby doll lying on a table. I waited til the time was right to use that. Meanwhile, J nosily reached for E's new toy and I intervened with one for her. She smiled. D made his way to the backyard to meet N with his also. E showed me smiley faces, flowers and a sunshine she drew. She walked over to SW sitting beside me and I made my move, asking, "Is that your doll?" She shyly said yes and ran and hid it saying You can't see her. I whispered then, oh is she sleeping... she caught on quickly and whispered back that she was. Two minutes later invited me over to see her baby who had no name. We played with her a bit and then went to check out how D and N were hitting it off in the backyard. E asked me to pick her up, I did and J wanted up too. So with a kiddo on each hip I walked outside to what was the most amazing thing... N and D were playing. Not D playing and N watching but a full blown interaction. I reached out to him and he reached back. We rolled cars back and forth, he asked up as soon as E and J went down.

A last minute doctors appointment Foster Mom had caused us to be able to take them and leave for the whole day! And what a day it was. We went to a park and played on the jungle gym for awhile, then to McD's for french fries and E an icecream cone. We were warned that if N saw the playground it would all be over... we tested the theroy and it's busted. He not only saw it, but did not play on it, cry when we said we weren't staying to play and he buckled himself into his carseat to leave McD's without a fuss. The three waved and said "Bye Bye playground" at my prompt and there were no hurt feelings. We came back to the hotel for an action packed afternoon. We took lots of pictures but the cutest thing is E wanting to talk on the phone to everyone. I started calling D Dad and he called me Mom and they picked up quickly. First in name only I suppose but I started telling E the truth about everything. We are adopting you. We are going to leave and fly on a plane far away to Florida and Mama (FM) and Dada (FF) are not coming. We are Mommy and Daddy now... she said forever? I said FOREVER.

We brought them "home" tonight and they all freaked out. N covered his carseat buckles and did not want out, E cried from the moment I said shoes on and J wouldn't let me put her down. We left there teary eyed and upset but tomorrow we plan to keep them from here on...

I'm exhausted so more later. Pics are uploading now.... love to all

~K

Final preparations

I spent yesterday afternoon cutting the grass so that it wouldn't look like a jungle when we get home. I also installed chain locks on the front and back doors to keep the little ones from wandering outside. Then I installed those cabinet locks on all of the kitchen cabinets and the silverware drawer around 9:30pm.

Today we will be cleaning a condo to make some extra money before the trip. We still need to pack clothes and all of our electronics, such as digital cameras, video camera, laptops and mp3 players. It is so hard to pack, I am always afraid that I will forget something and I usually do. I will work tonight from 6pm-6am and then work tomorrow night 6pm-6am and our plane leaves at 6:05am. One of the Officers that I work with has agreed to come in early so that I can change clothes at work and jump on the plane. I can't wait to meet the children!

We will be sending out emails with plenty of photos of the children when we get there.

God Bless,
-D

Braxton Hicks

That's the name of those pesky contractions you get when it's "almost" time, but not quite yet. I remember them well with B and R. A few disappointing visits to the ER quickly proved they were only there to annoy. Well, they are really there to practice the uterus for the real deal. I'm in the Braxton-Hicks stages in this adoption. I am feelin it everyday. I know delivery is iminent and I CAN HARDLY WAIT!

You truly do experience some of the same emotions as pregnancy. My hormones aren't outta whack but I'm feeling it. I have bits of anxious tears and overwhelming joy, fear...can't forget fear, I day dream, I hope... I pray and mostly I wait.

We continue to find tiny details we haven't thought of yet. Big one this morning was when Mom and I realized we need to child proof her house too. BIG DEAL. Lots to do. The pool is secure as it seems but we have a very inquisitive 3 year old who seeks out gates... New gate locks will be installed while we're in Oregon. A pool alarm too I think. The inside of the house is kinda tested already. We will see. Gotta run, lots to do!

K

A travelin we will go...

We got our tickets today! It's official- we are going to meet the little ones. June 22 - 29 we will be in total... choas. We are meeting our children whom we love through a photograph and they know nothing about us. Not who we are. Not what is happening. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. Ok, you get it. I, for one, am kinda freakin' out a little. I've tried to imagine an absolutely unpredictable situation and it isn't possible.

Anywho... back to travel info. We had planned to go earlier but the time wasn't good for Foster Mom. Understandable, but the plane tickets doubled and a half!!! Yikes! We found some halfway reasonable ones though we're over budget so needless to say our Fundraising efforts are in high gear again.